Bestfriend's Words

In The End

Was listening to "결국" (In The End) by G-Dragon and came across the romanization/translation of the lyrics and I just fell in love with the song even deeper.The lyrics were so meaningful and it cuts deep into my wounds that were long healed.

This is for all the brokenhearted out there:
Although love is painful, I repeat it like a fool, that’s what I always do. But pain is beautiful, it’s same as you.

Hope turns into disappointment, hope turns into despair. The deeper love grows, the deeper the pain gets. I make the mistake of thinking and hoping it’ll be different this time.  In the end, how many years would have passed?There is no such thing as forever.In the end, were we never meant to be? I am alone again.  

Barely had I thought I found true love but in the end, it ends like this. My heart is just like the first time but now it’s filled with scars because of you. We keep changing.  At your cold voice, I cool down too.We’ve grown so far apart to turn things back, to linger around each other without any feelings. It was so hard that I gifted you with separation and after turning around,I’m fallin without you.  

In the end, whose fault was it? There is no such thing as love. In the end, is breaking up, losing? I’m tired and I fall asleep. Is this point barely our last? In the end, are we becoming strangers again?  

Let’s go! I didn’t know at first. I liked his empty spot. But after a day or two, I would appreciate him.I didn’t know about myself, I thought I could live well without you. Tomorrow will be different from today, it’s already been 1, 2 years. As much as the hardships of those times, my lingering attachments increase. I pray that things will change as time passes.  

For you my baby.

Miss you T

Truth

It's me against the world. When will I ever let out this secret and take the burden of keeping it off me?

I'd break down soon if I don't find a way of telling it. But the consequences of telling out scares me. However I know I need to take responsibility for my own mistakes.

Oh Lord, please guide me the way to the light and set me free. Thank you Jesus!

I am with you always. -Matthew 28.20

Holidays?

So rants or news first? I think I'll rant first and end of with a happy note.

Well, my laptop cannot be turned on for the life of me. Been a week since it was dead or I shall say crashed and burned. I remembered shutting it down PROPERLY because my laptop charger can't seem to charge my laptop now the tables have turned and it's my laptop that doesn't wanna be charged while my charger is working perfectly normal, I think.

Found my long-lost skates (supposingly a good news). However when I was meticulously cleaning it, I broke the straps!!!!!! Ugh!!!! I tried gluing it instead I accidentally glued the straps shut..... I am such a klutz. Sigh. I've never had a time when I used superglue and got my hands all clean and everything fixed.

So now I need to send my laptop for servicing and do something about my skates :(

Had my last physiotherapy session today! It's a good and bad news. One, physio is pretty expensive when all you do there is just to exercise and the ultrasounds at the end. I mean you could exercise at home and it's absolutely free, which saves you $30plus for each session!

I must say that I really really really love doing ultrasounds! It's so soothing and it makes my knees feel relaxed and less tense! I'm gonna miss having ultrasounds and the nurses that attends to me are forever so sweet and polite to me :)

Bad news: I RARELY EVER EXERCISE AT HOME. Thus all these supervision from my physiotherapist and the sessions which forces me to exercise while working on my thighs to support my feeble knees :(
So no physio=no more exercising?

I NEED MOTIVATION!!!!! 💪

October is here which screams HALLOWEEN!!!!!
One of my favorite "holiday" ever!
Last year I went "Spooktacular" at Sentosa with my Jos girls, it was helluva fun!!

This year I'm going USS's Halloween event with a few Spartans teehee so excited! Hmmm hopefully I can go for Jos' Halloween outing too :(

YAY HALLOWEEN IS COMING!!!! 🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻

Sleepy days

Having holidays, but it isn't a well-deserved one. Deep in my heart, I know it shouldn't be a holiday at all.

Guess I need to find productive things to do to occupy my time preventing myself from overthinking!

Quotes, lyrics and horoscope

"Chemistry cannot be purchased."

"Don't look for my attention when I finally decide to walk away."

"When I start hating on someone, no positive things you say/do can change my feeling towards you. Maybe it can, but it'll take a long time."

"Don't depend on others so much for motivation because once they leave, you're left with no motivation at all. #truestory"

"Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."

"If it was that easy, everyone would have a happily ever after and there wouldn't be a thing called love."

"Cus you see lately something's changed in my mind. Seems like the fire within me has died. I'm a stranger to myself,don't wna feel this way."

Today, it feels like winter has suddenly started. A great chill has spread over my private life. Instead of a heart, I have an ice block in my chest and everything I say seems cold and impersonal. Been rejecting invites out for a dinner or an evening out from a significant other. In other words: I don't feel at all in an amorous mood.

I should always remember to favor friendship over love.

Judged

I hate getting judged. Like when can people stop judging. Stop sympathizing me.

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