I just thought they dont know me well enough to judge me.
But I realise they do know me.
In fact, they know me too well.
They do everything for my best interest.
Yet I did everything for granted and to my own benefits.
Not having other thoughts about them.
I feel very guilty towards them, esp my parents :(
I really love them alot.
I must learn how to treat them better from now on.

I know I am bad-tempered, impatient, unreasonable and very unforgiving.
I need to change all these flaws in me.
I've always been treated like a princess in my family.
I've not suffered any setbacks in my life, I'm too pampered.
So I take things for granted.
Flaring up when one pick on my flaws, disagreeing with them.
Not wanting to accept the ugly truth.

I've split personalities :(
I treat my friends really well but I'm a different person towards my family.
Only one might seen me in that way.
I'm a bitch at home.
I throw tantrums and curse whenever I don't get things my way.
I threaten to end my life when they force me to do things I don't want to.
I don't forgive people easily so the hatred goes piling higher and higher.
Thus I get pissed at the slightest thing.
I'm feeling really remorseful over my behaviour at home.
Now you people see the other side of me at home.
Because I really wanna change.
I really want everyone to see my determination to change too.

I really love my family and whatever things that makes them happy, makes me happy too.